Wednesday, 13 February 2013

Alcoholics Anonymous | February 13 2013 | AA 12 Steps In Action | Step 2 "Sanity"

Alcoholics Anonymous | February 13 2013 | AA 12 Steps In Action | Step 2 "Sanity" | House Of Cards and "common welfare, common ground and your personal spiritual beliefs…" Alcoholics Anonymous is all about inclusion, if you say you are in, you are in the fellowship. One primary purpose to stay sober and help others. With step two, coming to believe in a higher power will always be a personal matter. Our spiritual beliefs will always be personal beliefs. I do believe myself: "spiritual living is the ability to cope with reality, the reality of now." My own personal spiritual compass is based on: "truth, how to love people and how to be loved back by people and develop this wisdom from moment to moment." Truth, love and wisdom, helping me cope with reality in the moment of now. And what is my higher power? Truth, love and wisdom shared in the moment of now, through people, places and things. Strength in unity, understanding and helping each other live the truth, love and wisdom of now. Which makes it easy, as a person who still finds it difficult to believe in other people's notion of God. Gandhi suggested: "God is truth and God is love…" And this manifests in what we do together by sharing experience strength and hope, inside and outside fellowship through actions and not just impressions that something will happen just because it will happen… We have to work at life, the spiritual life of now is always going to be a work in progress…

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Alcoholics Anonymous DonInLondon "House Of Cards"

I was watching the brand-new series of "House Of Cards," and one of the principal characters in the story is an alcoholic. And the alcoholic in the story is having trouble with a higher power. And the alcoholic in the story is finding it difficult to understand what on earth the twelve steps are about. They do have a sponsor in the story and the sponsor suggests that we come to believe in a power greater than ourselves. I won't say what happens in the series because I need not spoil the story for anyone. What it reminds me of, and this is part of my daily reminder, that each of us needs to develop our own understanding that we are not God, and we are not infallible. And if we were omnipotent in the first place, we would not be alcoholics with a killer malady. Does it need to be any more than that? I do believe its up to the individual what they believe in. All I know is I'm very happy to have people in my life who have superior knowledge and experience. Sharing as they do in meetings of the fellowship and in family and in my community...


In my videos, January all about step one, and powerless over alcohol, and if I drink again life will get unmanageable. And part of step one is recognising that all I need to do is be sober today. And then with step two, came to believe that a power greater than me would restore me to sanity was a big ask, because the word God seemed to be shared quite a lot, and with all the people in the meetings, although they talked about God, there was not much common ground about what God represents, what God is and if anyone got into a debate about it, it all went to pieces. So the God bit has no consensus in terms of definition, and this is quite right because 7 billion people on the planet will not agree about God. Apart from one obvious fact, no single person is God on the planet, and it is unlikely that there will be a definition of God which all will believe in today. So I am happy that I am not God, and you are not God, at the same time, the collective conscience to the good of life is shared as best we can across this globe one day at a time… In other words, listen to people who share experience, strength and hope of their recovery, listen to the many voices of recovery and follow the path of sobriety as you develop it. Today!


If you are agreeable to the notion that you could not stop drinking on your own, and no matter what you do, you don't seem able to stop once you start, it is a pretty mad situation. Insanity, of doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result by drinking, drugging or addictive behaviour, it is truly mad. And the madness turns into blame, and the madness turns into isolation and covering up. And the madness is that although we may feel completely out of control, our thinking is so disruptive that we quell our madness with addiction! So if we have got stuck in this madness, and it has happened for thousands of years, most of society will write us off and throw us on the scrap heap, disown us and be despairing. And worse, usually those of us who have been trapped by addiction write ourselves off, hide away from life and the people who might still love us and then we die, sometimes quickly sometimes slowly and it is desolate…


Every day, we are faced with the conundrum of what to do and what is happening. Sometimes life remains busy and we are confronted with so many different pressures and stresses that we don't know how to cope. And the immediate solution for alcoholic is always in a bottle when it gets too tough and unmanageable. Fellowship, empowers freedom of choice again, with a desire to stop drinking and a desire to help others, we start to develop a new outlook and start doing new things which keep us sober today. And if we are able, we start to understand that life is lived in the moment, and no matter what happens, most of the time we can cope, and if we cannot cope, we can ask for help today…


Sanity is contingent on the day I ask. Today has been interesting so far, overnight watching the entire series of "House of Cards" with all the machinations about power, money and corruption and blind ambition, I really enjoyed it. Reminded me of the old life. And a particular incident in one of the episodes, reminded me of my life and the torment I faced in a past career. Powerful and evocative of how I could not cope with myself, and yet I could cope with the outside world, until… Anyway, it was a salutary reminder of past times, and a breakdown, that I thought could not happen to me, because I knew better. Of course if we burn out and don't realise it, we keep on going on fumes until the breaking point. Burnt out! The only reason I did not give up completely is the impact it would have on my mother and family. There was no other reason to live. Today is completely different, sober one day at a time, the spiritual principles of truth, love and wisdom work for me, the truth, love and wisdom which is available around me every day. Contingent on me asking for help. One day at a time…


Alcoholics Anonymous | February 13 2012 | AA 12 Steps In Action | Step 2 "Sanity" |Today's AA daily reflection: "we cannot think our way sober." For me it is the difference between thinking and knowing versus actually doing and living sober. I read the books, thought I knew it all and I don't, and waited. I needed to wait for life experiences which meant I could see my old behaviour and my need to change my behaviour as the steps and traditions could be utilised in real life… It was not long before I could see how each step and tradition helped me with my feelings and actions on a daily basis…


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2009 - 2012


Clearly the school of hard knocks and the University of life provides every experience to test and challenge how we can keep sober and live the steps and traditions in our lives. Never perfect, simply progress today and the joy of understanding what my feelings are, rather than thinking what they ought to be was a revelation almost from day one. My first feeling, not pushed away by alcohol was almost paralysing, it was fear. And with the passing of each anxiety state, the fear kept on diminishing to fit reality.


It seemed like I had put the cart before the horse, my thinking had been a fantasy of what I ought to be able to do. As my feelings and emotions started to settle down, I realised if I knew how I was feeling on a daily basis and in the moment, my thinking would be the right size for the day and that moment. Then my actions were more in keeping with the reality of what is happening and not trying to think of myself bigger or smaller than the problems and solutions on that day…


And now, I realise just as I did not think my way into being an alcoholic, it is not thinking which comes first in keeping sober. Knowing how I feel, will always show me the way. Extremes of emotion which do not fit with reality will always lead to overthinking the situation and the actions being extreme and will not help me cope with reality as it is. I really didn't understand my feelings and emotions because I was only half complete. I now know that I can feel anything dependent on my spiritual condition. And as described by an archbishop and probably many other religious and secular "emotional and intellectual scholars," "spiritual living is the ability to cope with what is going on now."


This does not mean we abandon our thinking completely or ignore what we have learned over the years. We need to put the horse before the cart, know our emotional state and how it impacts on our thinking or we keep on doing the same old things expecting a different result which is Einstein's definition of insanity…


"Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity"


DonInLondon 2005-2011


"Even the most brilliant mind is no defence against the disease of alcoholism. I can’t think my way sober." As Bill Sees it


Two meetings, lunchtime at the "hut" for spiritual experiences and traditions. Wonderful chair, all about reality. We can live reality today without the need to take the edge off. Gifts in recovery, getting to know ourselves and those we love. Sometimes just in time, we realise just how much we care for family and make amends before it is too late.


And then "after nines" at Eaton square, all about later sobriety. The good news in later sobriety is to live the days and not rely on years, that we still get into scrapes, fall into holes, bits may drop off us! Same as everyone who keeps on living. And always newcomers looked after in this meeting in a caring way, and similarities and not differences emphasised all the way...


AA Daily: WE CAN'T THINK OUR WAY SOBER ~ FEBRUARY 13 To the intellectually self-sufficient man or woman, many A.A.’s can say, “Yes, we were like you-far too smart for our own good…. Secretly, we felt we could float above the rest of the folks on our brain power alone.” AS BILL SEES IT, p. 60

Even the most brilliant mind is no defence against the disease of alcoholism. I can’t think my way sober. I try to remember that intelligence is a God-given attribute that I may use, a joy-like having a talent for dancing or drawing or carpentry. It does not make me better than anyone else, and it is not a particularly reliable tool for recovery, for it is a power greater than myself who will restore me to sanity-not a high IQ or a college degree.



Just For Today, and every day cherish always...


AA Official Online Site: Daily Reflections

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