Friday, 1 April 2011
Alcoholics Anonymous Daily Video | April 1 |
Fear of being good enough today... I got trapped in my own fear of not being good enough for decades. Then I feared being good enough in early sobriety, frightened to have esteem, courage and faith. I think it was paranoia and a worry I might be judged as a "fake." If I don't “fake it to make it,” I learn truth, love and wisdom more easily, no secrets, not stuck...
Rome and humans were not built in a day.. Monuments and monumental events, history to cherish, to laugh, to cry, we are a mixture of old and new. 12 Steps! Step four our historical balance sheet of good and bad, step ten as we change every day. We develop our courage, faith and confidence… less fear, ego and brave facing...
Step 4, our emotional assets and liabilities, 'to hell and back' best done with care and guidance ~ Lorna Luft "My mother was a phoenix who always expected to rise from the ashes of her latest disaster. She loved being Judy Garland." -/- Look back, appraise, don't stare, we change and grow..
As Bill Sees It ~ Dealing with Resentments ~ Resentment is the Number One offender. It destroys more alcoholics than anything else. From it stem all forms of spiritual disease, for we have been not only mentally and physically ill, we have also been spiritually ill. When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically. In dealing with resentments, we set them on paper. We listed people, institutions, or principles with whom we were angry. We asked ourselves why we were angry. In most cases it was found that our self-esteem, our pocketbooks, our ambitions, our personal relationships (includingsex) were hurt or threatened.
"The most heated bit of letter-writing can be a wonderful safety valve -- providing the wastebasket is somewhere nearby." 1. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, PP. 64-65
2. LETTER, 1949
Daily Reflections ~ LOOKING WITHIN APRIL 1 Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 42
Step Four is the vigorous and painstaking effort to discover what the liabilities in each of us have been, and are. I want to find exactly how, when, and where my natural desires have warped me. I wish to look squarely at the unhappiness this has caused others and myself. By discovering what my emotional deformities are, I can move toward their correction. Without a willing and persistent effort to do this, there can be little sobriety or contentment for me.
To resolve ambivalent feelings, I need to feel a strong and helpful sense of myself. Such an awareness doesn’t happen overnight, and no one’s self-awareness is permanent. Everyone has the capacity for growth, and for self-awareness, through an honest encounter with reality. When I don’t avoid issues but meet them directly, always trying to resolve them, they become fewer and fewer.
I do not speak for Alcoholics Anonymous I speak for myself. Alcoholics Anonymous is a fellowship of unique and authentic people who speak for themselves where they will to share experience, strength and hope about recovery on a daily basis. Anonymity affords sanctuary to find how to live sober and be open, honest and willing to learn life day by day. For me "truth," "love" and "wisdom" offer the best spiritual experience by living reality today. Into the fabric of recovery from alcoholism are woven the Twelve Steps and the Twelve Traditions, steps to be open honest and willing to learn, traditions to live unity service and recovery.
spiritual principles ~ acceptance surrender faith open-mindedness honesty willingness moral-inventory amends humility persistence spiritual-growth service
Step 4: "Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves." We want to uncover the truth about ourselves. We want to discover the attitudes, thoughts, beliefs, fears, actions, behaviour’s, and the behaviour patterns - that have been blocking us, causing us problems and causing our failure.
Open To Truth, Love And Wisdom of Others [we let go having to be right, self obsessed and self medicating our lives into oblivion and harms way]
We find it amazing that the newcomer can start the A.A. program without any specific beliefs or, for that matter, without any beliefs whatsoever. All a person needs is the open-mindedness and the willingness to believe that WE BELIEVE this program works...
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AA Big Book Video | Chapter 1 Bill's Story |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 2 There Is A Solution |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 3 More About Alcoholism |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 4 We Agnostics |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 5 How It Works |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 6 Into Action |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 7 Working With Others |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 8 To Wives |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 9 The Family Afterward |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 10 To Employers |
AA Big Book Video | Chapter 11 A Vision For You |